traveling on....

well, I'm in Michigan.

the end
;)

No, really.

But, today has been a time for reflection.
Now that college is basically...over..(kinda) I've had a lot and prlly to much time to think. For some reason that isn't good most of the time, but I think today it was. Here's what I thought about...

rehearsing tonight, I stopped and went "oh my word. do i even realize what mary did and went through?" (Jesus' mom). Why did that hit me then, I don't know. But it was so real, and it impacted me. Then again, there's something about this place that is really good for me. I think they appreciate the Arts a lot and it makes me feel comfortable to be here. Also, This play, or whatever you want to call it, is so passion-filled, so meaningful on some many levels and will reach sooo many people. they have a lot of community members who are dancers and set people..etc..its just amazing. It just realllly means so much. Wow....I can't even explain.

Ok, next!
I have gotten so far from the core of who I am - I'm not even talking about my faith or the fact that I believe in God- but I'm talking about what I like, what I don't like and who I am and want to be. The essentials are there, but have I been lying to myself about what I like in people or what I need to be or do to be more Christlike? do I lie to myself and say that I should/shouldn't do things cuz I don't have time when I do? Or do I really have reasons not to do things? I don't really know how to put into words what I'm saying...gosh...

then i just re-read that and thought God and Faith are the core of who I am...all the other stuff changes. But, sometimes I think that I'm one way and people see me the wrong way and I'll never be Christ-like enough in peoples' minds. Then I think maybe I shouldn't care so much???


ahhh.
wow.
that was out of control.

I also thought about my recording session in December. That will be fun.

Do you know I get to use a wireless mic for my electric and use in-ears. nice huh?
this is fun.
today i got to play the piano for a good hour and it was in this dark room that was just me....
sigh.
this is who i am.

ugh.....

I hope you didn't just read all that. you're probably almost as confused as me now!!!!!



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