conversations...

This week has already been interesting and its really only Tuesday night. It feels like its been a whole lot longer....

I had a good conversation today and now it has me in a completely different mood than the rest of this week has gone.

lauren and dusty are good to talk to...

see, we discussed approval...and our view of ourselves...and what really matters...and the future...and what we need.

Approval- I seek others' approval, more than some. I'm not sure when that started but its as if other's constantly had to build me up or i felt like i had no worth. wow. But really....the cool thing is that even if everyone else deserts me and thinks I stink and even my closest friends are gone i still have one thing that can never be taken away. God's love is always wrapped around me..what an intense thought. Its as if He tapped me and said, 'hey, I'm still here and My love for you will never leave!" wow...

View of myself-- same as above...but then lauren brought up this thought...if i was standing in a field and everything had been stripped away, my friends, people who compliment me, my style, my hair (ouch), my musical ability, whatever...what would still be there??? I don't need to DO something or BE something for God to love me and to be in my life...

and if I truly want to serve God and Worship Him with my life, and if I truly believe that God is the most important thing in my life, I need to make Him the center of my life and strive to be more like Him. I lose focus so easily.....

The Future...isn't it scary? There's a lot to be done. A lot to see. A lot to encounter. Exciting...scary...but mostly exciting.

So...I need to keep focused. I really need to only say my sights on what is pleasing to God and what He wants for my life...everything else is a factor of that...something that stems from that.....



oh man.....what happens to me sometimes???? wow....