i miss....

hello

i wouldnt trade this year for everything. i've learned more about myself then any other year of my life. but....(hahah) this morning i've been thinking about the things i miss about my old life in mount vernon.

why doesnt someone tell you that when college is over all of a sudden youre pushed out away from all of your friends and into a strange new world and you have to CHOOSE something to do?! never in your life have you had to make such black and white choices-in my opinion. sigh. So, sometimes i feel like i'm wading in deep water. This is way more self-discovery than i ever had in college. Wayyy more. but its ok! I'm learning! ok....anyways....

1. Tim Hortons. Its 24 hours and always full of good conversation

2. random ensemble concerts and rehearsals. you know christmas is coming when you start rehearsing the Messiah!!!

3. Walking across the courtyard to just chill with friends. no plans needed. no driving. just hanging out and having random heart to hearts and/or just sitting watching hours of tv shows on dvd-for us it was gilmore girls. every season :)

4. Chapel. I miss the connection of really just taking the time three times a week to be among friends and learn about God. i miss that. a lot. When i go to church now its like i cant get enough and i want to soak it all in. i do LOVE my church though. love. like best ive ever been to. lovelovelove. side note hahah

5. Going to the chapel at Christmas. going up to the chapel ANY time and sitting at the piano with the lights low and just playing.

6. easton. i dont know why, but i miss walking around easton. we dont have a mall like that here in md. i want to try to get there around christmas and walk around and see all the christmas lights.

for now thats what i've been thinking about this morning.

i've also been thinking, this weekend, about what love is, and what it should look like, and what as a creation of our GOD, what i deserve when it comes to a future husband. Love. I think ill blog about that next :) I had major revelations.

hey. have a good day. if you read that and it depressed you, i apologize haha and once again i really do like my life now. just wanted to go back in ma mind.

love you.

twasout

monday.

hello,

I've decided that someday I want to be best friends with someone who owns a coffee shop. I will come in and get free coffee and get to sample new drinks. I'll even be a barista once in awhile. Isnt this the perfect plan??!

I've also decided that every year for the rest of my life i will carve a pumpkin around Halloween while drinking apple cider. I love tradition. I love it.

I've also decided that if I ever have a child, they will dress like a pumpkin for halloween their first year. My friend's baby was a lion yesterday-also acceptable.

The holiday season is basically here. The excitement for me is already here. This year will be a good holiday season. My parents, when i first moved home, said "just wait. we're really fun at the holidays" How cool is it that i get to spend the complete holiday season with my parents this year. That hasnt happened in five years. Wow. So, I think for many years, I"ll remember this year :)

Hey, I posted a few more videos on youtube.com/toriwithastar so go ahead and check them out when you have a moment. They're sorta soft, but just put your ear near the computer and go with it :) hahah.

Hey, I hope you're doing well and remembering to enjoy the clouds and the stars. They're full of promise.

twas.